How to Realise you are Dying
Posted by lemiffe in Life on Apr 23rd, 2009 | 0 commentsIf your life is a Chevrolet Camaro, mine is a Pontiac Solstice. If your life is a Ford Mustang, mine is a Tesla Roadster.
Thats how things are when you lose control.
Everything used to be normal, as in every story, but there reached a point in which I snapped. But, how do you realise you are losing control and deteriorating?
Simple signs:
Death
You drive much faster and frenetically, you demand a lot more, you think everybody is being lazy or not doing enough, you expect more from yourself every time but you constantly nag about not having enough time for yourself, you know something is wrong but you can’t find a solution, you try to get everything organised but organisation is driving you mad, you eat faster, and you can’t sleep well.
Worst of all: You start displaying physical problems such as tiredness, aches, stomach problems, headaches, indigestion, acid reflux, and a lot of different symptoms.
It’s that point when you know you have to find a solution. You can’t wreck your life like that.
Today is the first time I actually drive home in a calm state. For months I have been trying (and dying) to achieve this. I tried to be patient. I tried to be smooth. But somehow I always felt time was running out… and I sped. Of course, I nearly lost it at work today. I became so aggitated throughout the day that I had to calm down.
What does all this lead to? Dying sooner than expected.
What is it useful for? Nothing good, believe me.
The point is that you have to accept that by rushing everything you will not get anywhere. You need to sit down and think, what is the point of it all? if not to satisfy yourself, your family and your friends.
So how can you change your bad habit of killing yourself with stress?
I found a useful method: Try acting slow, like if you had some kind of problem that made you process things much slower. Talk slower, move slower, eat slower. If you drive, drive slower. Feel the breeze, look around, and don’t worry about time. Cover the car’s clock with something. Do not think about the destination, but about the valuable time you are spending with yourself. If you don’t have anywhere to rush to, try and think about stopping for a coffee on the way back, or going for a ride around a neighborhood you had never visited.
While this may not work for you, this has worked for me, and I think it could be a good start for anyone. Try different things, something has to work.
We all die some day, there is no need to rush it.
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